Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Second Day of Exam
Sunday, April 11, 2010
转你说、那幸福
有人说幸福是一辈子的事,也有人说幸福是一瞬间的事,还与人说幸福不关我的事。
幸福是个很美的词,他代表着我们的生活我们的喜怒哀乐,有人说幸福对我们是奢侈品,我们没钱、没好的生活、该有的一切我们都没有。其实并不是这样,每个人都会拥有一些东西然而都会失去一些东西,换一句话说老天对你关上一扇窗,就会在另一方面为你开一扇窗,其实你并没有失去。你没钱可是你拥有健康,这难道不是你的幸福吗?每个人都有每个人的悲哀,所以说每个人都有每个人的幸福,有些幸福你可以察觉到但有些在不经意间会流过,你不会察觉随着时间悄悄地过去了。
每个人都会有幸福的权利,我们活在这个世界上活着是为了自己不是为了别人,那些为别人活着的人并不是我们,我们没那么高尚,没那么伟大。有时我们会发现有些事并不是我们想象中的那么容易或简单,重要的是我们要把握住我们自己的幸福机会,有些事过去了就不会重来。
你拥有了亲情不要当作理所应当,不是每个人都会有自己的父母,而你拥有了就是那你的幸福;你拥有了健康不要当作理所应当,不是每个人都会有健康的身体,而你拥有了就是你的幸福;你拥有了友情不要觉得很正常,不是每个人都会有真正的知己朋友,而你拥有了就是那你的幸福;你拥有了爱情不要觉得这是很平常的事,不是每个人都能得到一份真情,而你拥有了就是那你的幸福。
有人说不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有。可是以前的拥有只能是回忆而现在的幸福是一辈子的事。在越来越现实的社会,不是每个人都回守着爱情吃饭。有些事情你可以奉献,但有些青你未必会坚持到底。
你说、幸福到底在那里?
First Day of Exam...
Friday, April 9, 2010
等一个人好累, 别在等了?
等一个人 等的好累 就不要再等了
没办法看到你飞信上线却不再跟我说活而不难过
于是我把你从飞信好友删了
没办法看到你QQ头像亮着却不再不闪烁而不伤心
于是我把你从QQ好友删了
没办法看到每天那么多的人来访却等不到你的头像而不哭泣
于是我把你从人人好友删了
没办法在想到你时而不心痛
于是我想把自己删了。。。
人生就像一场舞会
教会你最初舞步的人却未必能陪你走到三场。。。
这世界最累的事情
莫过于眼睁睁看着自己的心碎了
还得自己动手把它粘起来。。。
我真的喜欢你
闭上眼
以为我能忘记
但留下了眼泪
却没能骗到自己
我承认
我是一个有些任性的孩子
我承认
我想用我的全世界来换取一张通往你的世界的入场卷
不过 那只是我的一厢情愿而已
我的世界 你不在乎 你的世界 我被驱逐。。。
回忆 是值得感触的
却也仅仅是拿来自己与自己寒暄的
时间 给所有承诺一个期限
而这个期限则是短暂的瞬间
你甘愿 便是永远
诺不是
你也可以说
这仅仅是一个谎言
明明说着看开了放下了
每次却总是不自觉地自己想起了那个给予温暖的人
每每又总是在微笑沉醉时又看到了现实
想到了伤痛
然后 冷的感觉再也暖和不起来了
如此反复 心 终于累了
现实就是这样
我曾经醉过
却又最终醒来
我正在行走
却找不到方向
黑暗中
偶尔 有些伤痛苏醒
偶尔 也会小声哭泣。。。
白天 依然那么故作着坚强
你也许早就已经习惯了
心隐隐作痛的时候
也可以置之不理
不知不觉掉下眼泪
也可以习以为常
强颜欢笑或是歇斯底里都是愚蠢可笑的
如果,他在你面前笑,并不代表一切都好。。。
如果,他在你面前哭,说明她是真的很难过。。。
如果,你足够慷慨 给他安慰
他会打心里感激你
深深地。。。
怎么了?你累了?说好的 幸福呢~~~???
梦里梦到了你 哭了。。。
醒来后发觉现实似乎比梦里的让人心痛。。。
于是 哭得更加凶了。。。
我愿意让我的那些与青春
与温暖有关的回忆里都是你的影子
我愿意。。。为你。。。忘记我姓名
爱一个人
你会记得和她在一起的日子
深爱一个人
你会记得和她分开的日子
这一年 他们成为了彼此的路人甲
他成全了她的自由 她辜负了她的崇拜
她终于还是离开了 走向一个没有他的未来
可是 他还是抱有那么一丝丝的幻想
或许此去经年
她也会偶尔想起他
想起曾经一起看过的生如夏花与秋风萧瑟
只是
他的世,从此无她
他的事,只剩逃离
分手后不可以做朋友
因为彼此伤害过。。。
不可以做敌人
因为彼此深爱过。。。
因此我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人
如果失去记忆
是不是生活会变得容易?
如果不曾忘记
能否让回忆依稀感动依稀?
恍然能够大方的放下一切
让自己轻装上阵
可是这种假装往往持续不到一天
她的照片存了又删
删了又储
回忆被拿起又放下
放了又拿起
记性太好的人
往往都不怎么快乐
记忆不过是为了某些可以铭记的东西而存在
我明白
我还没有到只剩下用记忆来消磨时光的年纪
也许 我还是会那么的在意那些只被我一个人
来铭记的时光
还是会经常不经意间的回忆起你
回忆与你有关的点点滴滴
但是 我只是去回忆 哼着我们的歌
而不再挣扎
不再去给你增加负担
想念你“贝贝” 希望你能听得到我的祝福
要开心幸福
“只要你愿意,我会一直陪着你 ,不离不弃。”
女孩很漂亮,很可爱,却有一个很不幸的家庭,女孩从来都不知道自己的妈妈长什么样子。爸爸忙着工作,从小就没有给过女孩太多的关心,女孩觉得自己被世界遗弃了,直到有一天,遇到了男孩,女孩才知道被人呵护是多么的幸福,渐渐的女孩脸上的笑容多了。
男孩很帅,很阳光,学校的每一次运动会都会有男孩的身影,上次省运会男孩又一次夺冠了。男孩很受女生的欢迎,在另一所学校举行服装绣的时候男孩认识了女孩,站在台上的女孩竟然如此迷人,于是男孩和女孩相恋了。男孩比女孩幸运,男孩有一个幸福的家庭,有时,女孩是多么羡慕男孩,男孩喜欢轻轻的拍着女孩的头,说:“傻瓜,你也会很幸福的,只要愿意,我会一直陪在你身边,不离不弃。”女孩也觉得自己拥有男孩就是最大的幸福,男孩的每一句话都是那么的温暖。
男孩会骑着电动车送女孩去学校,接女孩回家,即使他们没在同一所学校;男孩会牵者女孩的手带女孩去逛街,会买女孩最爱吃的甜筒冰激凌给女孩;男孩会带女孩去糖巢,要两杯原味奶茶,两根热狗,一包爆米花;男孩还会亲手为女孩炖汤,然后送到女孩学校。每一次男孩都会给女孩带来不一样的惊喜,女孩真的觉得自己好幸福,好幸福。或许上帝也发现自己对女孩真的有点刻薄,所以才把男孩送到了女孩身边,女孩总是这么天真的想。
三年了,女孩把和男孩一起发生的一点一滴都记在了日记本上,女孩希望有一天真的能和男孩依靠一辈子的时候,把那些记忆给男孩看,和男孩一起分享过去的美丽,和男孩一起继续原有的美丽。
二
最终女孩的梦想还是落空了,女还没有等到那一天。
女孩的爸爸给女孩找了一个继母,女孩的继母是美国人,所以他们决定把女孩送到美国去读书,女孩拒绝了。女孩不想离开男孩,和男孩在一起是她唯一的幸福,女孩真的舍不得离开男孩,男孩曾经向女孩承诺过的:“只要你愿意,我会一直陪在你身边,不离不弃。”女孩也希望和男孩永远不离不弃的。
情人节的前一天,男孩没有去接女孩,电话也关机了,女孩在校门等了好久,男孩还是没到。“或许男孩有事不能来了吧”女孩想。于是女孩独自走出了校门。
明天就是情人节了,女孩也想给男孩一个惊喜,女孩去了“米约小屋”,那里有一对情侣表,女孩很早就想给男孩买了,女孩到“米约小屋”门口是碰到了男孩,可是男孩却挽着另一个女孩的手,从“米约小屋”说着笑着走出来,女孩呆呆的站在那里,望着男孩,这时,男孩也看到女孩了,他们就这样沉默的注视着对方,站了好久。女孩的眼里有了泪水,女孩告诉自己不能哭,不可以那么脆弱,女孩转身跑进了人群,在她转身的那一刻,女孩的眼泪夺出了眼眶,她多希望自己什么也没看到,女孩真的很想假装一切都没发生,还是像过去一样幸福的和男孩在一起。可是,女孩做不到,那是她深爱了三年,三年深爱的男孩啊!心都要碎了,她觉得属于自己的幸福将要远去了。当男孩反应过来的时候,女孩早已淹没在了人群,在也找不到女还的身影了。
女孩失落的回到家里,女孩终于答应爸爸去美国了读书了,明天就走。那晚男孩打了一个晚上的女孩,可是女孩的电话一直都关机着。
第二天,女孩很早就到了学校,她什么也没带走,女孩把那封沾满眼泪的信搁在了自己位置的桌角,她知道男孩一定会去找她,一定会看到的。
男孩又去接女孩了,但是,男孩没等到女孩,男孩又一次拨下了女孩的号码,依旧是关机,男孩去了女孩学校看到那封女孩留给男孩的信。男孩想赶到机场挽留女孩,男孩不可以失去女孩,男孩真的爱女孩,男孩要像女孩解释一切,在一起那么久了男孩从来没有这么害怕过。
在男孩干渠机场的路上,意外还是发生了,男孩为了赶时间,闯红灯,出车祸了,男孩倒在血泊中,手里还紧紧地抓着他要送给女孩的情人街礼物,一对手表。那对手表正是女孩想要送给男孩的礼物。男孩的嘴巴还半张着,似乎要想向女孩解释什么。
其实女孩不知道,挽着男孩的另一个女孩是男孩的表妹,他们一起去“米约”挑送给女孩的情人节礼物,男孩买下了唯一一对刻着“不离不弃”的情侣表,手机关机是因为没电了。这些女孩永远都不会知道了。
女孩相信男孩一定会去机场送她,或者挽留她。女孩想,只要男孩说三个字“不要走”,女孩就会立刻扑到男孩怀里,永远不去那个陌生的地方,然后一辈子不离开男孩了,就算昨天看到的是真的,女孩也不再计较。
直到飞机起飞了,女孩也没看到男孩的身影,当轰隆隆的声音在耳边响起时,女孩哭了,女孩后悔了,女孩不想离开男孩,女孩不想失去那份珍贵的幸福。女孩在信上给男孩留下了地址,女孩又想,只要男孩给女孩写信了,要女孩回去,女孩就会不顾一切的回到男孩身边。可是女孩不知道在她离开这个熟悉的城市的前1个小时,男孩永远的离开了她。
女孩在世界的某个角落等待着男孩的来信,而男孩却在另一个世界的某个角落注视着女孩。女孩什么都还不知道,女孩相信,男孩会叫她回去的,因为男孩曾经承诺过:“只要你愿意,我会一直陪在你身边,不离不弃。”
三
女孩等了好久好久,还是没收到男孩的来信,女孩联系不到男孩了,或许男孩遇到了什么事,暂时无法与女孩联系吧,女孩总是这样安慰自己。
3个多月了,为什么一直没有男孩的消息,女孩着急了,即使她相信男孩有一天会去找她的,但,女孩还是决定要回国。女孩的继母每次都以女孩必须留学深造,不能现在回去为借口。最终,女孩还是回去了,没有男孩的日子对于女孩来说每天都是煎熬,女孩已经好就都没真正开心的笑过,女孩知道自己的继母并不是真的关心女孩的,不然为什么女孩到美国那天,继母都没去送女孩。
还是那条熟悉的街,曾几何时男孩牵着女孩的手无数从这里经过,3年了,几乎这里的每一个角落都有男孩和女孩走过的足迹。此时,女孩的眼里又开始有了泪水,女孩是多么的想念男孩,而男孩却连一份信都没有,心在隐隐作痛。女孩好想知道这时的男孩在做什么,是不是也一样的在斯思念女孩。
女孩还没到家就迫不及待的先去了男孩家,意想不到的是,男孩居然搬家了,好失落,为了找到男孩,女孩拖着疲惫的身子去了男孩的学校,男孩的同桌告诉她,男孩在情人节那天出车祸,永远的离开了。女孩的心像被什么狠狠的纠了一下,好痛好痛,忘怎么哭,呆呆的在原地站了好久,不可能,不可能的,才3个多月,仅仅才3多个月啊,怎么可以说走就走了呢?苦苦等待了那么就换来的居然是这种结果。
女孩转身冲出了教室,眼泪像断了线的珠子,从眼眶里涌了出来,女孩躲在操场上的柏树下哭的撕心裂肺,眼泪流进了心里,苦苦的。这一定是假的,一定是假的,他在跟女孩开玩笑,3年的幸福不可能就这样丢了,男孩一定还在某个地方等她,男孩承诺过的:“只要你愿意,我会一直陪着你,不离不弃。”女孩似乎又看到了男孩温柔的眼眸,男孩在对她微笑,男孩用顾做责怪的语气说:“傻瓜,走了3个多月了,知道不知道我很想你……。”女孩想跑过去拥抱男孩,告诉男孩,她也想男孩的时候,瞬间,一切又消失了,原来只是梦境,女孩哭的更伤心了。
四
女孩哭累,真的累,瘦小的身子蜷缩在树下,抱着双腿的手臂微微抽动着,透过泪水女孩看见自己破碎了一点一点在滴血的心,。一个影子与女孩越拉越近,那个影子像及了男孩的,女孩抱着仅仅只剩最后一丝的希望抬起了头,掺透着血丝的眼睛哭的红肿红肿,女孩失望了,原来是男孩的同桌。女孩没有理会,继续低下头,努力的克制自己不再掉眼泪。“不要哭了,我带你去个地方。”他的语气很平缓,女孩紧紧的跟在他身后,她已经猜到去什么地方了。
台阶有点陡,很长,女孩在很久很久以前到过这里,记忆很模糊,但她知道自己妈妈的坟墓就在这里,只是她早已忘了是哪个,记忆里爸爸只带她去过一次。
“到了。”男孩停下了脚步,语调还是一样的平缓。眼前是一大片坟墓,女孩已经站在男孩的坟前了。“不,这不可能,不是真的,告诉我,这不是真的。”女孩快要崩溃了,男孩的遗照切切实实的就被贴在墓碑上。还是一样熟悉的面孔,还是一样温柔的眼眸,可是一切都离女孩好远好远。
女孩双膝跪在男孩的墓前,眼里已经没有了泪水,心已在一次一次的哭喊中麻木了,那些所谓的幸福成了女孩所有的回忆。女孩只想静静的,静静的陪着男孩。女孩直到今天才知道男孩已经离开3个多月了,好愚昧的玩笑。
如果那天女孩没有去“米约小屋”,如果那天女孩什么也没看到,如果那天女孩不选择离开,接下来的事情就不会发生了。男孩还会像过去一样送女孩去上学,接女孩回家;男孩还会像过去一样带女孩去逛街,买女孩最爱吃的甜筒冰激凌给女孩;男孩还会像过去一样亲手为女孩炖汤,送到女孩学校。好讽刺的如果,好讽刺的过去,是自己亲手葬送了幸福,女孩不断的责备自己。
夜幕开始降临,女孩的腿早已跪麻了,她忘了站在身旁的男孩的同桌,其实他知道女孩很伤心,但一切都无法挽回了,“很晚了,回去吧。”他慢慢的扶起女孩。
女孩又回到原来的学校上课了,只是男孩再也不能去接女孩,女孩每天下午都会去陪男孩,她不想男孩寂寞,女孩知道,男孩一定需要女孩。女孩每一次去看男孩都会想起过去的很多,很多。那些可刻骨铭心的记忆就像昨天放映过的电影,依旧清晰。那些日子,女孩每一次都会在梦里见到男孩,而每一次醒来都是泪流满面,枕头也湿透了。在男孩的坟前女孩没有哭过,她不敢哭,她知道男孩一定不希望看到女孩伤心,不然男孩在天堂也会难过的。
女孩一直相信,男孩是上帝派到她身边的天使,男孩会一直守护女孩的。现在上帝感冒了,男孩要回去照顾上帝,过几天男孩还会回来的。因为男孩承诺过的:“只要你愿意,我会一直陪着你,不离不弃。”女孩知道这样的借口有点荒谬,但女孩愿意去相信。
五
越是美丽越让人痛心
逝去的甜蜜
像针一样扎进心里
幸福的记忆
如雾一般散去
不再微笑了
亲爱的
你去了另一个世界里
不再哭泣了
亲爱的
你依旧活在我的心里
女孩开始沉默,在她的世界里不需要言语,找回了当初一如既往的忧郁。
那天下着大雨,女孩没撑雨伞,她又去看男孩了。白色的裙子被雨水冲的很湿很湿,紧紧的贴在身上,长长的头发凌乱不堪。远远的看去像一只白色的蝴蝶在雨中穿行。
“哧——”一声及刹车划破了雨中最美的风景,女孩倒下了,女孩走的太急来不及闪躲,血把白色的裙子染的鲜红鲜红,雨幕里,女孩迷迷忽忽的睁开眼睛,她似乎看到了男孩,她想爬起来,抱住男孩,告诉男孩,她错了,她想他,她再也不任信的离开了,她要陪着他,永远不离不弃。女孩再也不没爬起来的力气。远远的,她看到了另一个陌生的,却又似曾相识,如此亲切的背影,那是妈妈,是女孩日日夜夜思念的妈妈。视线越来越模糊,女孩感觉到男孩握住了自己的双手,喃喃的说了些什么,可是她怎么努力也听不清楚,女孩还感觉到妈妈在轻轻的抚摸着自己的头,好温暖好温暖。最后,女孩安静的闭上了眼睛,嘴角微微向上扬着,她在自己的幻觉里幸福的微笑着……
当救护车赶到现场时,女孩永远的停止了呼吸,同一个地点,同样一场车祸,夺走了男孩和女孩珍贵的生命。或许一切都是注定的,或许是上帝刻意安排的。上帝想让痴情的男孩和女孩在天堂相遇,在天堂里继续他们的感情。男孩的承诺终于实现了:“如果你愿意,我会一直陪着你,不离不弃。”
女孩去了妈妈和男孩的身边,她是天堂最最幸福的小天使。
后记
有时候知道了比不知道更痛苦,女孩不知道,她也不需要知道,就这样,静静的,静静的离开这个喧嚣,丑陋的世界。
其实,男孩的离开一切都是女孩的继母一手策划的,女孩的继母不能生育,前几个月她预知自己得了癌诊,已经没有几年时间了,但她在美国经营的那家公司不可以倒下,那是她用尽了所有的心血才把自己的品牌打入市场。她的这一切需要女孩去继承,如果要女孩帮她,女孩就必须去美国深造,这样才有能力在公司里立足。当她知道女孩为了男孩不答应时,她几乎要气疯了,时间不多了,如果女孩再不去,会来不及的。
女孩的继母已经跟踪男孩很长时间了,她必须造出点意外让女孩失去男孩。当女孩突然决定去美国的时候,她取消了这个念头。在她赶去机场送女孩的路上,她又看到男孩了,男孩走的很急,连自己闯红灯了都没注意到,女孩的继母预感到男孩要去阻止女孩离开这个城市,她决不允许男孩去破坏她精心的计划,她不允许。这时,一个狠狠的刹车,她惊醒了,她把男孩撞倒了,这怎么可能,女孩的继母心有余悸,她其实并不想这么做的,可是来不及了,马路上一滩鲜红的血确实是来自男孩身体里的。
因为是男孩闯红灯的,所以这件事很快就过去了,赔的那一比钱对女孩的继母来说,跟本不算什么。
一切的一切都不再重要了,男孩和女孩的故事并没有结束,因为,他们会在天堂里继续演义真情的戏剧。男孩曾经对女孩承诺过的:“只要你愿意,我会一直陪着你 ,不离不弃。”
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Another Marriage Coming Soon...
Saturday, April 3, 2010
想你,却不打扰你,是因为太爱你。。。
Monday, March 29, 2010
My HCM suck~!!!
hey there
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
hey here
[9] SooNtEnG says:
hmm
the report
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
yea?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
u all did and wrote BY XXX
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
ys..
yes
[9] SooNtEnG says:
thats mean that i did nothing in the report
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
lolx
u did the slide ma
[9] SooNtEnG says:
no
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
no?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
should be is group work for all
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
lolx
[9] SooNtEnG says:
cannot write that
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
how now?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
miss ask me how also
haiz
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
aiks...
lolx
i dont know le
sorry~~
[9] SooNtEnG says:
she said our presentation kinda lousy,she gt ntg to says
its okay
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
=.=
[9] SooNtEnG says:
and ur mark is 60
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
over?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
menviss 63
jasmine 59
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
o.O
huh?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
not over
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
jas 59?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
u must add all the marks from other groups and then divide
ya
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
i thought she should be more
oh...
[9] SooNtEnG says:
haiz
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
means add with teacher also la?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
and in the report
yep
yep
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
ic
[9] SooNtEnG says:
add all n divide
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
kk
[9] SooNtEnG says:
and the report
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
?
[9] SooNtEnG says:
didnt do the meeting one,time ah date ah..
all that
lol
all cut marks d..
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
LOLX..!!!
I didnt put date
only put day
lolx
[9] SooNtEnG says:
about meeting de wor
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
yes
only day
[9] SooNtEnG says:
that one menviss used to send to miss de
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
no date
[9] SooNtEnG says:
ohh
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
men send to miss that one she delete jor
didnt save
lol
die la like that
[9] SooNtEnG says:
ohh..
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
>.<
[9] SooNtEnG says:
haiya
watever
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
lolx
sucks la
[9] SooNtEnG says:
cannot do anything also
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
yea la
if can, i wish to turn back time
lol
[9] SooNtEnG says:
lol
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
swt dont know la
dah pass
cant do anything anymore
>.<
[9] SooNtEnG says:
ya
^^[- Jojo -]^^ --> People said ice cream can makes you happy... But i think it doesnt works on me... lolx.. says:
just have to pray hard study hard now~
[9] SooNtEnG says:
ya
I See Nothing
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Macro Presentation 3
Saturday, March 13, 2010
You Took My Heart Away...
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hope or dream
Try to dull an inner scream
But you . . . saw me through . . .
Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home and now I'm in love
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when its cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .
Living in a world so cold
You were there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now . . . I'm in love
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when its cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .
Holding your hands
I won't fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We never be alone
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning of my life . . .
You become the meaning
You become the meaning of my life . . .
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Falling For You
I think i maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe i should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til i
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But i want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what i'm feelin ...
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Who Am I To You (All)?!?
Actually, who am I to you (all)?!?
I wanna know..
It seems like I the one who always doing the wrong things and saying the wrong words.
Have u all thanks me just for once what I have done for u all?
Is like, no matter what I am the one who always get scolded and glared at..
Fuck man..
I'M JUST A PASSING MESSENGER LA!!!!!!!
AND I'M DONE DOING THAT..
Fucking hate it..
Do u guys think a passing messenger is EASY to do?!?
Is not my fault also I am the one who get glare at..
Will u (all) feel well if someone glare or scold at u (all) when is not your fault?!?
If yes, u (all) come do la..
I wanna see how your expression is!!!
Like just now in the car when me and mum was on the way home..
We were in the car..
Talking about M's wedding card..
So she said M should put "my beloved uncle" on the card..
So I said we don’t know about these things..
We don’t know about those traditional things..
So we didn’t do..
Then she started to talk it loud..
Saying "Ahhh... u all don’t have manners one la (Bo Le Mau - in hokkien)..
Younger that time, no one teach u manners (Sui Han Si, Bo Lang Ka)
Ur grandma don’t want to teach (Ah Ma Em Kam Ka)
U all got no manners (Lu Lang Si Bo Lang Ka Si E)..
Is my brother don’t care about this things only (Si Ka Na Wa E Tua Hia Bo Chap Nia)..
Like my uncle, I got to write "my beloved uncle" if not i no need to be so confusing (Siang Ka Wa E "Uncle", Wa Toi Ai Xia. Na Bo Wa Toi Mian A Ni Ma Huan)..."
In my heart, I was like " WTF?!? Is my fault is it?!?
Now is whose wedding?!? Mine a?
Is none of my business okay???
Why say I "Bo Lang Ka Si"?
Bo Lang Ka Si is also your (mum) fault okay? Not only grandma..
Grandma is not my MUM!!! U ARE!!!!
When we were young, where are u all?!?
Dad don’t care, u?!? were busying working for the company..
So??? Who gonna teach us MANNERS?!?
WHERE WILL WE LEARN IT WHEN MY PARENTS DONT EVEN TEACH US?!???"
Did u or dad ever teach me anything?!? NONE!!
None of u all.. Most of the things I knew is from M..
Were u all there when I am hurt? When I am alone? When I am crying?
When I cry, u all only know how to scold me said "so big already some more crying.."
WTF? Who said grow big already cannot cry is it? Illegal is it?!?
In my brain, I did remember is.. You promise me something and u never done it.. WTF man..?
I remember a few times u said wanna bring me go out eat seafood with all the uncles, aunties and cousins after work..
Made me to wear nice nice waiting for u to coming back to fetch me..
I waited for hours, for u to come pick me.. Were u there?
I waited until u came back from the dinner..
The worst part is.. Everyone was there and I am not!!!
WTF? I am not this part of the family is it?!?
Do u all know it feels hurt..? I do have feelings.. T.T
And my dad,
One day, he told me that "U BUY UR OWN CAR WHEN U START WORKING!!!"
What do u mean by buying your own car when u start working?!?
In my heart, I was “Okay. Fine. I will. But don’t ask me to drive you..”
I know I will be soft-hearted..
Do u know u were even worse than mum..?
At least, mum DO drive me, pay for me, spending more time than u did...
Sorry.. U did not.. U were never there..
Is like never exist in my life when I am small..
U don’t know where is my tuition, when I got tuition, what time is my tuition, never spend time with me, never talk to me, never give me money to spend and never drive me(I forgive that because I know u don’t drive)..
My 1st uncle was so much better than u..
He IS my uncle, he did spend time with me, talk to me, give me money to spend..
This should be a DAD job, not UNCLE job..
I can say my 1st uncle is the best dad in the world..
I love him more than my dad.. I am sorry for that.
Cause u were never there for me..
U knows what? I am much closer to my uncle than my dad.
Dad was like a stranger to me now..
Nowadays, when I drive him out to eat, I will automatic on radio..
If not the car will be too quite.. See!!!
And I am trying to do my best for u all..
I will do what I can do..
I don’t like to be a messenger but I have too..
Cause everyone in this house call me to do things, passing message to each other when the other person were just beside them.. See la See!!!
I HATE IT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHH...
Who can solve all these problems?!? T.T