Mad, Think and Feels..

All the while, before I attend metro..

I have been telling her that..

I will go Aus if parents can afford..

I even told her i will go for my final year..

And only 1 year..

Now..

I even told her again...

And she keep mention 3 years she cant afford..

And also ask if i go during my 1st year..

OMGosh!!!...

Really wanna puik blood..

Conclusion is...

I, will go... If can afford.

And will not go, if cant..

How to go if cant afford?!? 

Gosh... no need to ask right?!? 

And keep saying "leave it to me"

How to leave it to u?

You are starting to have ur own life..

I dont want to spoil your life/relationship...

Your in law might not like it anyway..

I see u, i also....

don know how to say..

Been there for like 7 years..

But still moving here and there...

No stable life...

Now wanna marriage already..

And starting to have ur own life..

Own family..

And u got to think of me

Saving money for me to study at there..

For what i go then? if u are living so difficult?

Who knows u might have problems with ur husband and in law because of me?

I dont want that to happen..

I know u care for me..

But i do care for u..

So.. stop thinking for others when is time to start thinking for ur husband and family..

Who knows.. u get a baby next year?

Everything might happen..

Just like Matt...

Everything go so fast..

"Time wait for no one"

With in 1 and half year,

We moved house..

Matt got married suddenly..

They got baby suddenly..

And you gonna married soon..

All happen too fast..

Gosh..

Dont know la..

I feels everything is too fast for me..

Money are flowing out~~

Hard times...

Aikss.. Dont know la..

Dont want to think...

Pek chek!!
T.T

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Suddenly, thinking of something.. 

That she made me too..

*The olden day...*

Lolx...

I dont want to think le..

Don't make me think of it..
Don't like to think it

But im still thinking..

And..

Can't stop thinking...

@.@

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Currently, feels bad..
Feels bad for doing such bad things..
Dont know how to say..
What i can say is...
"Sorry, Men... "
>.<

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Night time is hard time for me..
Cause..
Coughing non stop..
Ribs pain when cough..
Habis I..
x.x

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So...
After all this..
Should I still go to sleep..
Or..
Think, think, and think?
Gosh..

Sleep la, girl..
Nitezzz...
(Hope I can..)