Who Am I To You (All)?!?

Actually, who am I to you (all)?!?
I wanna know..
It seems like I the one who always doing the wrong things and saying the wrong words.
Have u all thanks me just for once what I have done for u all?
Is like, no matter what I am the one who always get scolded and glared at..
Fuck man..
I'M JUST A PASSING MESSENGER LA!!!!!!!
AND I'M DONE DOING THAT..
Fucking hate it..
Do u guys think a passing messenger is EASY to do?!?
Is not my fault also I am the one who get glare at..
Will u (all) feel well if someone glare or scold at u (all) when is not your fault?!?
If yes, u (all) come do la..
I wanna see how your expression is!!!

Like just now in the car when me and mum was on the way home..
We were in the car..
Talking about M's wedding card..
So she said M should put "my beloved uncle" on the card..
So I said we don’t know about these things..
We don’t know about those traditional things..
So we didn’t do..
Then she started to talk it loud..
Saying "Ahhh... u all don’t have manners one la (Bo Le Mau - in hokkien)..
Younger that time, no one teach u manners (Sui Han Si, Bo Lang Ka)
Ur grandma don’t want to teach (Ah Ma Em Kam Ka)
U all got no manners (Lu Lang Si Bo Lang Ka Si E)..
Is my brother don’t care about this things only (Si Ka Na Wa E Tua Hia Bo Chap Nia)..
Like my uncle, I got to write "my beloved uncle" if not i no need to be so confusing (Siang Ka Wa E "Uncle", Wa Toi Ai Xia. Na Bo Wa Toi Mian A Ni Ma Huan)..."

In my heart, I was like " WTF?!? Is my fault is it?!?
Now is whose wedding?!? Mine a?
Is none of my business okay???
Why say I "Bo Lang Ka Si"?
Bo Lang Ka Si is also your (mum) fault okay? Not only grandma..
Grandma is not my MUM!!! U ARE!!!!
When we were young, where are u all?!?
Dad don’t care, u?!? were busying working for the company..
So??? Who gonna teach us MANNERS?!?
WHERE WILL WE LEARN IT WHEN MY PARENTS DONT EVEN TEACH US?!???"

Did u or dad ever teach me anything?!? NONE!!
None of u all.. Most of the things I knew is from M..
Were u all there when I am hurt? When I am alone? When I am crying?
When I cry, u all only know how to scold me said "so big already some more crying.."
WTF? Who said grow big already cannot cry is it? Illegal is it?!?

In my brain, I did remember is.. You promise me something and u never done it.. WTF man..?
I remember a few times u said wanna bring me go out eat seafood with all the uncles, aunties and cousins after work..
Made me to wear nice nice waiting for u to coming back to fetch me..
I waited for hours, for u to come pick me.. Were u there?
I waited until u came back from the dinner..
The worst part is.. Everyone was there and I am not!!!
WTF? I am not this part of the family is it?!?
Do u all know it feels hurt..? I do have feelings.. T.T

And my dad,
One day, he told me that "U BUY UR OWN CAR WHEN U START WORKING!!!"
What do u mean by buying your own car when u start working?!?

In my heart, I was “Okay. Fine. I will. But don’t ask me to drive you..”

I know I will be soft-hearted..
Do u know u were even worse than mum..?

At least, mum DO drive me, pay for me, spending more time than u did...

Sorry.. U did not.. U were never there..

Is like never exist in my life when I am small..
U don’t know where is my tuition, when I got tuition, what time is my tuition, never spend time with me, never talk to me, never give me money to spend and never drive me(I forgive that because I know u don’t drive)..

My 1st uncle was so much better than u..

He IS my uncle, he did spend time with me, talk to me, give me money to spend..

This should be a DAD job, not UNCLE job..

I can say my 1^st uncle is the best dad in the world..

I love him more than my dad.. I am sorry for that.

Cause u were never there for me..

U knows what? I am much closer to my uncle than my dad.

Dad was like a stranger to me now..

Nowadays, when I drive him out to eat, I will automatic on radio..

If not the car will be too quite.. See!!!

And I am trying to do my best for u all..

I will do what I can do..

I don’t like to be a messenger but I have too..

Cause everyone in this house call me to do things, passing message to each other when the other person were just beside them.. See la See!!!

I HATE IT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHH...

Who can solve all these problems?!? T.T

我希望我多聪明一点点。
为什么别人都那么聪明，而我就那么笨？
好像只有我问别人。
因为别人问我，我也不会答。。。
哼，很想把时间倒转到2004！

《希望有一天我可以帮到别人》

晚安！

無名

在一個無名地方﹐我遇見了無名氏。。。

Presentation

I f88k up my presentation yesterday..

When i standing in front of the class,

I totally forgot everything what i wanted to present..

I cant say a word.

Swt man.

Damn sia sui le..

Luckily, my lecturer gave me another chance to present today..

Finally, I started it nicely and i end it

- Without wearing spec.. =.="

Hahaha..

Whatever la.

Important is i did it lo..

Phew~

I can relax now~~

Laptop

I miss my laptop~~ T.T
I miss my laptop~~ T.T
I miss my laptop~~ T.T
I miss my laptop~~ T.T
I miss my laptop~~ T.T
I miss my laptop~~ T.T
I miss my laptop~~ T.T

Isn't It Cute?!? =)

Yesterday, I bring my dogs for a walk like other days.
I walked them to the playground.
When I reach the playground,
I saw something jumped very high from the opposite house.
Then I sat on the garden bench.
I was so curious,
keep thinking what was that.
So I went up to see what it is.
Guess what I found?!?

Isn't it cute?!? =)

This rabbit belongs to one of the house opposite the playground.
I walked up to the house,
told the owner that their rabbit jumped out.
But the owner told me that it's okay.
The rabbit will jump out for eating and only come back the next day.
I was like.. =.="


How cool is that?!?
Hahaha..
Thinking of should I buy one too?..
XD


RABBIT...
RABBIT...
RABBIT...
RABBIT...
RABBIT...
RABBIT...
RABBIT...

Sis..Sis..Sis..Sister...!

Sister came back from Paris on 14th of June.
Brother and I went to KLIA to pick sister up at 6.30am.
Then 3 of us went for Dim Sum at Restaurant Taman Rashna.
After breakfast, we head home.
Cause I didn't get enough sleep yesterday,
So when i get home, I terus went to bed.. Zzz...
But my sister keep talk to me.. Bla bla bla..
Until 12.30pm.. Then I think i tertidur. Muahahaha..
Sleep until 3.30pm only wake.
Then sister and I watched astro for awhile.
By 5pm, I get ready to have my dinner with my family.
6.30pm, went for dinner at Restaurant Soon Kee, Setia Alam.
I had my dinner with my family except for mum.
The whole day, mum was at grandma house.
At 1st, mum asked us to go pick her up at grandma house after dinner.
But while we are on the way to pick her, she called.
Said that my uncle will fetch her home since he need to send his daughter home too.
So instead of going home, brother, sister and I went to Secret Recipes.
For a nice, peaceful moment..
I had a Caramel Macchiato..
We went home after that..
Uncle was at home when we reach home.
He was here with his wife to see sister..
We all sat down and bla bla bla... XD
They went home at 9pm..
Then both sister and myself watch television and talk until 2am only sleep.
That's all for that day.

Before I sleep, i turn on my air-corn.
But my sister turn it off cause she's cold.
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Aeon

Friday, 15th of May 2009.

I wake at 9.30am.. Feed CMM. And went upstairs for a bath. Getting ready to go Aeon. I meeting my friends there at 12 something afternoon. First, my bro said he will drove me to Aeon to meet my friends while he go for gym at 11am. But he 11am only wake up. End up, we went out at 11.45am. Go Port Klang to have our lunch. While eating, i was worried about i will be late/ the last one to reach there. But i kept quite. I didnt tell my bro anything. [Hahaha..] So I reached Aeon about 1pm. Im the 3rd to reach there. [Hahahaha..]

1st, I go find Ying & Lian. After i reach awhile, Xuan also reach there. So Xuan and I went to popular to buy magazine. [Haha.. So long i didnt buy magazine.] While Ying & Lian wait for San & Weng Kee outside the cinema. Then they went to Roxy & Watson.

After that, 6 of us went to Greenbox. I was quite boring about it. I dont really like to sing but they like it. So its okay la. Just go for fun lo. [Sometimes when i saw them singing, i feel like sing K also quite fun. But I DONT SING!!!! =.=" Aiksss... I, myself also dont know how la.. Maybe I have problems..Or Im sick.. Not sure. =)] They like to sing Chinese songs but I didnt update Chinese song. They sing alot of chinese songs.. Most of the songs is quite nice.. But i dont know what is the title.. [Hahaha... Nevermind la. ] It costs us RM10 for each person.

It was 5.30pm at that time. Lian had to go home before 6pm to look after her shop, before schools over. So Weng Kee & San send her back while me, Xuan & Ying went for shopping. 1st, we go Padini. [Actually, I wanna buy a blue shirt from Padini which i saw it before in a magazine but i didnt go see cause they wanna go to Brands Outlet. So go there lo.] At there, I saw a shirt quite nice. I like it. Is purple color with a cat grrr...ing. The picture is quite cute. Is 3 for RM50. I wanna buy but Xuan & I only choose one shirt, need another shirt. So we ask Ying to buy but Ying doesnt want to. So end up, I didnt buy lo. [It doesnt matter la. That shirt I like but didnt buy also nvm lo.]

Then, Weng Kee & San came back. She called Ying. So we said go meet at inside Jusco. Ying & Weng Kee went to see her Nike. San dont know went where. While Xuan & I wait for them. After that, San plan to go Lavender to Yam Cha. Cause she wanna buy cake. So I bought 1 egg tart [which I wanted so long ago] & a cheese hotdog bread. Xuan bought a bread - [I forget the name.] Lavender is too expensive. So we went to Black Canyon for our dinner at 6.30pm. I ordered a omelette rice - [something look like Nasi Pattaya]. We eat & talk & snap picture until 8pm.

8pm now. I asked Weng Kee to drop me at my grandma house. [Thanks to Weng Kee] Luckily, no one scold me or said anything. [Hahaha..] I thought my bro would scold me or say me already. - [Thank GOD!!] As soon as I reach grandma house, my cousin sister pass me 3 pairs of Vincci slippers.. I like 1 of the slippers. [The green color one], the orange color is okay with me but I dont really like the silver color slippers.

Went home at 9.30pm. Reached home safely.

Regards, ~*Jojo*~

Bihun Soup! =)

Yesterday i stay at home the whole day.. I got nothing to eat. So I made my own recipe Bi Hun Soup. Hahaha...

Ingredients:-
1. 3 pieces of Pig Bone (Hokkien – Tui Ba)

2. 2 handful of Ikan Bilis

3. Half pack of Maggi Chicken Stock

4. Mincemeat (Take as must as u like)

5. Bi Hun (Take as must as you like)

6. 2 slice of Spring Onion/ Onion Leaves

7. 3 pieces of Vege (Whatever u like)

8. 5 to 8 pieces of Dong Chai

For the Soup:

Put in the Pig Bone, Ikan Bilis & Maggi Chicken Stock into a pot.

Add water into the pot until full.

Then let it boil.

While the soup is boiling, you can prepare for others ingredients.

1^st, Take some amount of Bi Hun and put it into a pot of pipe water to soften it.

2^nd, marinate the mincemeat with Oysters’ Sos, Pepper, Pei Tou Yu and Corn Flour (So it would be sticky).

Then, roll into meatball.

3^rd, wash the vegetables

4^th, wash the Spring Onion and chop into small pieces.

After the soup boil,

take Bi Hun, Vegetable and Meatball rendam in the soup for awhile.

Then put Bi Hun on a bowl 1^st, then Vegetable, then only Meatball.

After that, put soup into the bowl too.

Then put the chopped Spring Onion and some Dong Chai on top of it.

And is ready to serve… =)

My 1st Bi Hun Soup.. First time do it.. The taste not bad la.. Hahaha..

I give myself 7 out of 10. Hahaha.. =)

Regards, *-Jojo-* =D

I'm Lost.. Need Help!!!

Hey, im currently still sitting at home doing nothing. =.="
I wanna start my course already but I'm not sure which uni/college to go.
I wanna take Accounting.
At 1st, my plan was I take Certified Accounting Technician (CAT) for 1 year.
Then continue with Association of Chartered Certified Accountants (ACCA) for 2 years in Sunway University College.
So 3 years later, i will be out to the real world.

My plan was perfect until i came home from Aussie.
My brother went to have dinner with one of our cousin's wife when I'm on holiday.
They talked about my studies..

(Before i went to Aussie, that my cousin's wife asked me to take 3+0 degree instead of ACCA)
But at that time, i dont care.
Cause i thought my plan was perfect.
My head keep thinking that 3 years later, i will be coming out to the real world & earning some amount of money..
Give mum some amount of money even if i don't earn a lot..
Be able to buy myself something that i want...
Getting richer one day pass another day..
Hahaha.. I must be dreaming. =)
[I feel that if one person come out to work earlier, he will get richer than others who come out to work late.]

When I came back from Aussie, my bro told me not to take ACCA cause the course is very hard.
He asked me to take 3+0 degree 1st, then come out to work.
If I wanna take ACCA, I can take it after I come out to work - when I'm older.
"Even my sister's friend, PC, who is a very hardworking & clever girl also will fail. Second time only pass.."
I think over and over again.
I'm a girl who is not hardworking, not very smart & I even fail 2 subject in SPM. I might fail even more times in ACCA.
So I thought "Hmmm.. Okay la. Dont take ACCA lo.. Since I'm not very smart or hardworking."

Then I consider what my cousin's wife told me earlier.
Taking 3+0 degree instead of ACCA.
So my current plan was take CAT then 3+0 degree.
But to take 3+0 degree, I need to take Foundation/SAM/A-Levels...
It's okay that if I need to take Foundation course.

The problem now is..
Most of the uni/college dont have CAT.
Only Sunway University College has this CAT course.
Even if i go Sunway University College take CAT, their pathway will be
British pathway:
SPM -> Pre-U -> ACCA
SPM -> CAT -> ACCA
Australia pathway:
SPM -> Pre-U -> 3+0 DEGREE ->ACCA/CPA
SPM -> Diploma in Business Adminstration -> 3+0 DEGREE -> ACCA/CPA

But my pathway is SPM -> Pre-U -> CAT -> 3+0 DEGREE
Dont think about ACCA 1st la. ACCA will come last, after i work.
Most of the uni/college's pathway is
SPM -> Pre-U -> 3+0 DEGREE
or SPM -> Pre-U -> Diploma -> Degree

Like :-

1. UTAR : SPM -> Foundation -> Degree -> ACCA
2. Taylor's : SPM -> Foundation -> Diploma in Biz -> 3+0 Degree
3. Sunway : SPM -> CAT -> ACCA
   : SPM -> Pre-U -> 3+0 Degree
4. Metropolitan, I dont know la.
5. HELP, they dont have Bachelor of Accounting. They only got Bachelor of Accounting & Finance. But i only want Accounting.
6. KDU :
7. Inti :SPM -> Diploma -> 3+0 Degree
   

How?!?
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How?!?
How?!?How?!?How?!?How?!?How?!?How?!?How?!?How?!?How?!?

Is 1.20am now. Going to sleep. Good night. Sweet dream. =)

Regards,
~*Jojo Tan*~

Just Stand Up Lyric

Keyshia Cole, Leona Lewis, Fergie, Ciara, Mariah Carey, Beyonce, Mary J.Blige, Rihanna, Carrie Underwood, Miley Cyrus, Ashanti, Natasha Bedingfield, Nicole Scherzinger.

All:
Everything will be alright, yeah

Beyoncé:
The heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on
Though

Carrie Underwood:
Sometimes
You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you that

Rihanna/Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall
Dust it off
Don't let up

Sheryl Crow:
Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle

Beyoncé:
You need to know

Chorus (Sheryl Crow):
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up

Sheryl Crow/Beyoncé:
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up

Fergie:
It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face

Leona Lewis:
Just because
You go through it

Fergie:
Don't mean it got
To take control, no

Leona Lewis:
You ain't gotta find
No hiding place

Keyshia Cole:
Because the heart
Can beat the hate

Leona Lewis:
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you

Keyshia Cole:
And sayin' you
Can't go on

Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you that

Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna:
If you fall

Miley Cyrus:
Dust if off
Don't let up

LeAnn Rimes:
Don't you know you

Natasha Bedingfield:
Can go

LeAnn Rimes:
Be your own

Natasha Bedingfield:
Miracle

Carrie Underwood:
You need to know

(Chorus-All)

Mary J. Blige:
You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind

Ciara:
If you fall
Dust it off

Mary J. Blige:
You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie Underwood:
Yeah

Mary J. Blige:
Let your heart
Be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie:
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mariah Carey:
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good

Ashanti:
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart

Mary J. Blige:
And it will get better

Mariah Carey:
Through whatever

(Chorus All)

Fergie:
You got it in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
Find it within you
Find it within

All:
Through it all
Just stand up

~* Jojo *~